For love ...

I saw her waiting something on bus stand right after I dropped brother's brother-in-law from my favorite blue color motorcycle. Looking tall and standing right up on the bus stand's road brim which making her ever taller among others. Beautifully putting black sun glasses on glowing white face, wearing skinny black pant and glimpse of white foot in between of those pant and the footwear. I'm hardly trying to remember the upper part of the cloths and her body but I failed just because I love her, else I will first notice the chest and the top rather than others. I saw her frequently on so many places even I'm driving bike because I was searching her every second on my eyes and that is my biggest mistake ever. Last time I saw her was while she was crossing road with her best friend in so negligence way, even so fast running car on AH42 have to stop for her.

Suddenly I feel like stopping my motorcycle throttle slow slow and slow for forever to stop right in front of her and couldn't stop myself form requesting her to ride together with me on my back. I don't feel like going ahead. If there is no road divider I would take U turn and keep look at her again and again until she disappeared.
...and I started to take a look at bus window whoever overtakes me from right of left of me in search of her. I kept doing that until I reached the Putalisadak. My mistake!!! I should have look at bike other bike's back too!
She was my final crush ! (based on physiological study Crush is only last for four months if it is more than 4 then it is Love). I don't have any word to call her.
Its already 2 days past but on my eyes I only see that lady Standing on bus stand.
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MBS Thesis 'Viva-Voce' Experience ! ( MY PERSONAL DIARY)

पोस्ट ग्र्याडुएटको थेसिस राम्रो गर्न कसलाई मन नलाग्ला र । त्यो मध्येको म पनि एक हुँ । थेसिस प्रपोजल बुझाए देखि यो सात महिना सम्ममा मैले सामान्य हन्डरहरु बाहेक तेस्तो ठुलो कुनै दु:ख झेल्नु परेन । र काममा खासै रमाईलो पनि लागेन ।

मैले अपेक्षा गरे बिपरति ठिक तेस्तै भयो जतिबेला रिसर्च डिपार्टमेन्ट हेडले मेरो थेसिस गाईडको रुपमा महिला शिक्षिका लाई तोकिदिनुभयो । मलाई महिला शिक्षिका सँग ब्यबहार गर्न अप्ठेरो लाग्छ । यसो लेख्दै गर्दा आजको समाजमा चर्को आवजमा महिला अधिकारको लागि लागिपरेको देखिने महिलाहरुबाट म प्रति नकारात्मक सोचाई उब्जाउन सक्छन् तर मेरो पनि त ब्यक्तिगत जिबन, रुचि, र छनौट गर्न पाउने अधिकार तेतिकै मात्रामा छ नि ।

मैले पोष्ट ग्र्याडुएटको सुरुको बर्षहरुमा निकै ऊत्कृष्ट रिसर्च गरेर थेसिस सक्ने र सम्भब भए सम्म निकै नौलो बिषय रोज्ने सोच बनाएको थिएँ तर परिक्षा प्रणालि र बिश्वबिधालयको पढाईको नियम अनुसार मैले तेसो गर्न नपाउने रहेछु । तेसपछि मेरो थेसिस लेख्ने रुचि हराएर गयो । सोझो कुरा गर्नुपर्दा, जसोतसो एउटा बिषय छानेर मैले टारटुर पारिदिएर पोष्ट ग्रयाडुएट लाई पुरा गर्ने बाटो समातें अनि म दृढटाका साथ भन्न सक्छुकि मैले रोजेको बिकल्पनै अति उत्तम बिकल्प हो, भुमण्डलको जुन ठाँउमा म बसोबास गरिरहेको छु  ।

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